As we are in the process of remodeling and adding on to our dream home (still so exciting to say that) we are doing A LOT of research on all of the things that involves. Plumbing. Electrical. Flooring. Cabinets. You know the drill. Some days it has been downright overwhelming. I feel this pressure to make every decision be perfect and correct and the one that we are going to want 30 years down the road. This pressure I am feeling is my own fault. No one else has said, “Mycah, you need to make sure to build the perfect house.” And I know in my mind that is something I cannot do and I will make mistakes but for some reason that does not change my approach. I think the main reason I feel that way is because it is a lot of damn money to do what we are doing and it is ingrained in me to not waste a single cent. I want to stretch every dollar to its fullest. The problem is not that I do not know what I want. I pretty much know exactly what I want and how I want things to look. The problem is once I find the right product, I spend hours searching for the same thing, or something as close as can be, for a less expensive price. In reality, if I just went with the original product, I would probably be much more content and be able to check more off of my to-do list without the headache (sometimes literally) of searching on the internet for something that is going to save me $30.
I am trying to be better about enjoying the process. It is something I am working towards. I don’t want to look back and say, “Thank God that is over,” because this is special and beautiful and who knows if I will ever have the opportunity to do something like this again. In saying all of that, the actual focus of this post is about handing it over to God. This house is a gift from Him. What I desire people to feel when they enter my home is
- Calm
- Contentment
- Happiness
- Enjoyment
- Pleasure
- Security
- Order
I want my family, especially my husband, to desire to come home and I mean more than just physically entering our house. I want it to be more about how it makes him feel than a place to pull off his boots. I want our home to be a stronghold, a safe place untouched by the yuck of this world. Where anyone can come for a break from the outside, to sit with a mug of coffee in their hand and just. be. So I am asking God to help me remember the end goal of this remodel is not just about how it looks…that is important as well, but about how it makes you feel.
